“udah ga usah dipeduliin, sekarang ketawa aja yuk. 1.. 2.. 3.. ktawa, ha ha ha. .”

when sadness and anger mixed up with tempered, when logics can’t seem to run well, and my mind can’t think straight. . it was you with your simple quote, sit there staring at me smiling reading those simple words. .

Hello readers! So long I’ve been away from this blog, carried away by my daily routinity on my  job *again*, and made me lose some precious things in my life.

Kali ini gw merasa kangen sama masa” kuliah gw dulu, terutama masa” dimana gw & hopenk” gw bener” ga terpisahkan.

Gw kangen masa” kita ber4 karaoke gila”an nyanyi I Love U.. Bibeh-nya The Changchuters, plus direkam pula & diupload ke YouT*be. Waktu kita berebutan mic, padahal udah 3jam nonstop teriak2 didalemkaraoke box like crazy.

Happy Puppy Lovers

duet mautt!

ngotot pisan mang nyanyinyaa. .

Kangen masa2 kita sama2 lagi sangat beteeee sm daily life kita & jalan rame2 ke Tangerang, then ngebut gila2an di arena Gokart. Trus makan bakmi yg maknyuss abisss *ala Bondan deh ngomongnyaa*, remove our stress and go back to Jakarta.

gokart arena *ngebuuutttt*

Bakmi Maknyusss. . :p~ *ngacay*

Kangen saat2 dipelototin dosen dikelas because we made that goddamn noise during those boooooooorrriingg lessons. Or waktu ber4 duduk di deretan paliiiiiiing belakang pas matkul Bu Niken di Kijang, and guess what? We fell asleep, hee. . *ampun Buuuu*

genk 'SelaluDudukPalingBelakang' haha. . )

@ CB Class - Relasi Antar Umat Beragama

sok rajin dia kerjain tugas

anak ilang minta perutnya di Frais biar rata.

sok rajin.

anak2 rajinnn.

Kangen lunch-dinner-breakfast-snack time kita yg alwaaaayyyss ketawa2 *untung ga sampe keselek ktawa sambil makan*. Foto2 pas makan Nyolong kulit ayam McD nya si Buncit dengan semena-mena sampe dy misuh2. Melototin si Jangkung pas mulai nyalain rokok after eating. Geleng2 kepala sambil bergumam “saaaaan saaann. .” kalo ada guyonan yg si Lola itu ga nyambung saking lemotnyaaa. haha. .

Malioboro - after K3 exam

satu ingusny dr idung, satuny dr mulut. haha. .

lirikan matamuuu.

bah, si Buncit bagus sendirian. x(

nyamm nyamm.

muka kelaparan.

kangen ngerayain ultah ber4, jalan2, nonton yg semua pastii heboh. Gada lagi kan pasukan rusuh yang tiap kali jalan pastiii ketawa2 sepanjang jalan, sampe dliatin orang2 dgn muka  bertanya2 : “di deket sini ada RSJ yg kehilangan pasien gak yaa?”. hahaha.

Pancious Time

Sumarecon Mall Serpong

Jangkung's 20th Bday

TA - Parisian Fitting Room

potong kuenyaaa~

Waktu kita semua wisuda, made our own achievement after 4 years campus-ing. Wearing those black suit, well it ‘s a one big result from being a student all this time, right? I believe even after this graduation we separated by distance and our different activity, we keep each others presence inside our heart.

Graduation Day

Dan momen2 kebersamaan kita ber4 yg ga akan ada yg bisa menggantikan how fun and precious it was. Biarpun cuma duduk bareng ngobrol, saling melontarkan hinaan dan caci maki canda yg yeah, it was FUN right? atau makan diwarteg deket kampus ; atau just sit down together in silence, drown inside each person’s own mind, yeah we enjoy those moments.

And now I miss them so much that I can cry.

Yukata Time

chit chat

anak emperan kampus. - Simulation Class

gift for Jangkung!

Photobox again!

Memang masa2 kuliah itu terasa ngangenin banget. Where I can meet them almost everyday just to share laughter, share our pain, share our thoughts, our mind, and everything. Gw merasa sekarang disaat kita semua udah lulus, udah punya kerjaan masing2, makin sedikit waktu yg bisa dihabiskan bersama2 seperti dulu waktu masih bertitel mahasiswa. Diluar kerjaan pun masih ada hal2 lain yg bikin kita ber4 ga bisa sesering dulu spent time together.

Makin berasa ada jarak. Ga selalu update keadaan masing2. Ga sesering dulu sharing each others problems. But I believe all those gaps between us will soon melt when we met and laugh together just like old times.

I miss u all guys,

miss our quality time. .

miss the laughter we made everytime we’re together. .

miss all those crazy jokes we made. .

miss all the stupid things we did. .

well, I am deeply missing you all guys. . .

Waw!

Pas ngeliat post terakhir gw yg bener” berisi, gw shock dengan lamanya gw ga meng-update ini blog. Yah fellas, untuk kurang lebih 10 bulan kebelakang gw emang bener” terkuras waktu tenaga pikiran di kerjaan gila gw sebagai Account Manager di PT. I*tegra P*atama itu. Mulai dr urusin tender bank” gede ampe masalah tagihan after project rampung. It was really frustating and made me lose some free time to update this blog. But now, gw mencoba mencari passion gw di kerjaan baru gw, di company yg baru juga, meskipun kerjanya ga jauh” dr build ‘relationship’ yaitu Relationship Manager. Well, me myself also wondering why I still stucked in this similar ‘job’.

Jadi yah guys, minggu terakhir kebelakang gw menghabiskan waktu gw untuk beradaptasi sm this new company, new environment, and also new friends. They’re all great, dan gw menemukan suaana baru saat gw beradaptasi dengan mereka. heee.

Kalo kerjaannya sendiri, hmm. .

Maybe I still can’t really find my passion here, toh baru seminggu juga yah kawan.

But so far, this job kinda make me excited and have some feelings that I wanna explore this job furthermore.

Tapi yah gatau yah fellas, gw masih muda, and gw pengen banget bisa coba banyak hal selama gw masih bisa untuk menemukan apa hal yg bener” jadi passion gw di hidup ini. Yah, masa muda cuma sekali guys, sebelum gw jd istri orang, jd mommy and dedicate my life for my family, gw mau sebebas mungkin meng-explore diri gw dan apa yg bisa gw lakukan untuk orang lain dan diri gw sendiri. Jadi kalo seandainya ada sesuatu yg gw rasa lebih menariiiiiiiiiikkkkk. .why not??

Truuusss, gw udah lama banget ga jalan” ke alam terbuka, semenjak terakhir gw nyaris tewas di Ombak Tujuh, gw lebih banyak spent time di kerjaan dan bersantai” dikos. hehe. . Jadi, pas diajak temen kuliah buat liburan sebentaran ke Pengandaran gw semangat banget! Can’t wait to have a vacation there!

Pantai.

Sunset.

Ombak.

Beach house.

Awwww, really really exciting!!

Okeh! So, persiapan pertama yaitu, diet! Hehe. . Gara” terlalu banyak bermalas”an dan udah ga rutin nge-gym, perut gw sekarang boooooo, MELAR. Ga etis banget ka klo di pantai perut gw berlebih kemana”, big No No. Jadi udah 2 mingguan ini gw mencoba mengatur lg pola makan gw dan rutin lagi olahraga, tapi bukan nge-gym, BADMINTON.

Pas latihan pertama, buset deh, kaki ma lengan gw ngilu” semua besokannya. Nyiksa banget dah! Mana besokannya itu gw muter”in JCC buat ngeliat Mega Bazaar Computer *sok cari2 notebook, pdhl ngincer digicam. * sempurnalah pegel” dan ngilu” badan gw. .ahaha. . Tapi pencarian gw di JCC ga berakhir sia”, gw dapet digicam idaman. hehe. asoooyyyy. Kamu semua mau liat?? Mau liattt??? *PLAK! ngmg aj pengen pamer kali Tin. *

Nah, in dia si ganteng inceran saya :

SONY DSC W310 - si item ganteng. . :-*

ganteng kan? hehehe. .

Yah, emang sih dibanding yg 14 pixel, dy masih kalan 2 pixel, tapi worthy enough koq buat gw. Jadilah si item ini new treasure gw. yipiy!

Sekarang hobi gw capturing moments in life bakal makin tersalurkan. Bahagia rasanya.

Si item ini bakal sering gw ajak jalan” kemana”, supaya ga kelewatan momen” yg gw pingin abadikan. Dan jalan”pertama si item ini nanti yah ke Pengandaran itu *hope so*, hehe. .

Dan tanpa sadar koq sekarang udah saatnya lunch yah? hehehe. .

Gotta go fellas, curing my stomachache and have lunch. c u soon after this. . :-*

it’s so much stories to write here.

so much I’d like to share about.

but my brain got stuck and I cannot write any of those memories down.

It’s the way you threw your jacket on me when it’s raining.
It’s the way you grabbed at my backneck when I punch your back.
It’s the way you held my hand when no one is watching us.
It’s the way you pinched my cheek when I smile at you.
It’s the way you put my head on your shoulder when our conversation got heavy.
It’s the way you sniffed my hair when it still wet.

Menurut gue, pekerjaan yaitu sesuatu yg hasilin lo sesuatu untuk bertahan hidup plus juga something which you have passion to work on.

Sekarang, in front of my road, I face a ‘JOB’ which I can’t describe it as ‘Passionable’ and ‘Profitable’. WHY? Karena kerjaan gue ini selain ga kasih gue sesuatu untuk hidupi diri gue sendiri, gue pun makin hari makin ilfeel sm kerjaan yg juntrungannya entah kemana ini. You may say that I don’t have passion to do it, tapi fyi aja waktu pertama kali kerjaan ini ditawarin ke gw, interview pertama, and so on itu ga ada gambaran sama sekali kerjaan bakal jd seperti ini. Okay, let’s say itu salah gue yg ga make myself clear about that, tapi toh ya penjelasan yg dikasih ke gw juga jauh dr praktek lapangannya.

C’mon, jaman sekarang ini lo dituntut menberikan profit untuk perusahaan tapi dengan keadaan dimana kesejahteraan lo ga dijamin?? Mikirin duit untuk bayar tempat tinggal, makan, sandang, dll aja udah mengkeret neh jidat, gimana mao mikirin profit perusahaan?? BULLSH*T BOSS!!

Kerjaan gada Jobdesc, gada SOP, tp pas dilakukan menurut style diri sendiri ehhhhh, kena semprot. Kerja bener diomelin, ga bener jg diomelin, jyahhh. Cape ati kaleeeee. Pas giliran tanya kerjaan harus gimana, dijawabnya : “Ya lakukan dgn cara kamu sendiri, emgnya kamu ga bs cari tahu sendiri?”, oh f*ck! Kalo mao menurut cara gue ya jgn aplikasikan standar elo untuk jd ukuran kerja gue donk BOSS!! Dumbass! Sini kasih gw dolo SOP ama Jobdesc standar perusahaan! Ga bs kasih kan lo??! Ngomongnya aja perusahaan gede yg pasarnya terbesar kedua di Indonesia, tapi manajemen perusahaannya kek benang kusut! kasih gaji karyawannya kek ngegaji lulusan abal2, malu donk ama All New C*mry elo th yg shinny2 kinclong!

Well, biarpun begitu emang sih ini perusahaan hebat, ya toh masih bisa dibilang perusahaan yg pegang bussiness core dr bank2 Indonesia. But despite that, maybe this company should just make some improvement and correction, kalo kagak ya gue sih tinggal watch it slowly but sure closed down ajah. Bukannya nyumpahin yah BOSS, but what you’ve sow is what you’ll reap. Lo tanem tomat ya panennya ntar tomat, ga mungkin lo panen duren kan??

I have dreams ; and I will put all my efforts to fullfil it.

I have only one life to live ; and I don’t wanna live it just for someone else`s sake.

I have many good times and somehow not-so-good times ; and I wanna treasure both.

I have scars, stains, and bruises ; and I learn how to deal with them altough it’s painful.

I have many options to decide ; and I appreciate the way sometimes excuses made me choose the right decision.

I have been living this hell-on-earth world for (not) a short time untill this day, and that’s why I understand why sometimes GOD makes you face difficult times, hard moments ; it’s just because He wants you to grow up and be tough.

You may think that your burden is too heavy for you to take, but just believe ; once you keep walking and still carrying those burden with you, you will realise that you’re not that weak as you ever thought you were.

what is the standard of a word, FAIR?

what indicates that you can call something a JUSTICE?

is it FAIR if you judge people from your own point of view without considerate x y z factors behind him/her that makes the ‘requirements’ can’t be fulfilled based on your standard?

can mention a word JUSTICE when you know that it’s irritating if someone judges you based on their standard without looking at themself ; and you practically did that too to other people!?

5 Songs Reminds You to Something, or Someone

Tau kan application ‘Living Social’ on Facebook itu? Nah kmrn  gw sempat addicted sm application yg satu ini. Salah satu yg gw kmrn ambil ya ini ’5 Songs Reminds You to Something, or Someone’.

*) Lagu pertama Nice Guys Finish Last – Greenday ; lagu pas kelas 3 SMP jaman” br mulai ngerti bahasa inggris, jd ada yg sok”an kasih sebait lirik lagu ini -tapi grammar berantakan alias salah lirik- yg gw simpen” terus di dompet. Klu gw ga salah inget, bait seharusnya itu :

“Pressure cooker pick my brain and tell me I’m insane. I’m so fu*king happy I could cry. Every jokes can have its truth but now it jokes on you. I never knew you were such a funny guy. bla bla bla”

Tapi gw udah lupa sih waktu itu bait lirik yg di’pleset’kan jd ditulis kayak apa. hihi -piss Bi-

*) Dua, The Lover After Me – Savage Garden ; Ini sih lagu kebangsaan, tiap saat ga bosen deh dengerin ini lagu. Dari arti harafiahnya aja udah nancep : Kekasih Setelah Diriku *cyeilahh* which means lagu ini lagu mellow patah hati yg tell you about how to deal with feeling and reality that your ex have found another lover. Uhuhuhu, saket.

“Ever since you’ve been gone, the lights go out the same. The only difference is, you call another name. To your love, to your lover now. To your love, the lover after me.”

*) Tiga, Don’t Look Back In Anger – Oasis ; lagu ini lagu wajib saban gw-rian-felix-san-dkk pegi karaoke. Dan yg paling ga bs lupa yaitu tiap mo nyanyi ni lagu, Rian ma Felix pasti brantem dulu rebutan mic! Brantem rebutan pilih ni lagu, dan ga kalah sableng, mereka trus nyanyi duet sambil gegayaan bak Oasis in Live Concert. Pake naek” sofa, ngejengkang” geje nyanyinya, sampe tereak” ala Noel Gallagher yg bikin orang” di karaoke room buru2 tutup kuping sblm harus berobat ke THT.

“Soooooooooo Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by. Her soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I hear you say.”

Jadi kangen Happy Puppy deh, karaoke lagi yoookkk.

*) Empat, No Air – Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown ; Ini lagu Jordin pertama yg gw denger. Pdhl duluan booming lagu Tatto kan, tp gw malah denger ini dulu, br denger Tatto. Lagu ini juga dpt referensinya secara ga sengaja, dr YM iseng ditengah malam buta sm seorang teman baik -ya, baik- yg hobi copas lirik” lagu ke YM sambil becandaan melontarkan rayuan pulau kelapa ga mutu, hihi. Waktu itu tiba” aja muncul dialog box YM yg isinya lirik lagu No Air ini, dan karena sang pengirim lirik mati”an bilang ini buagoezzzz, bsk paginya dengan koneksi inet kantor yang kenceng gila gw donlot lah itu video klip No Air, eh iya bener buaguz, jd donlot lah itu mp3 nya sekalian.

“But how? Do you expect me? To live a life with just me? Cause my world revolves around you it’s so hard for me to breathe.”

*) Lima, Haru Haru (Day After Day) – BigBang

“Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae Haru haru Mudyeojyeogane”

Kagak tau artinya?? Sama gw juga. haha. Tp tenang, dibawah ntar gw kasih trensletan nya -katro bngt seh nulis translate aja kagak bisa-. Ini lagu pertamanya gw gmau dengerin, gw bilang ma si Lola Maya san” : kagak ahh, gw ga demen lagi tuh lagu” korea macem begitu. Eeeeehhh, mkn omongan dah akhirnya. Ga sengaja denger tuh lagu dikosan temen, dengan polosnya gw tanya : Buagus ihh, lagu sapa neh? Minta dunk. Ga pake aba” lg, temen gw langsung ktawa sambil bilang : Huahahahaha, makan tuh omongan u kagak demen lagu korea, nih lagu tuh yg kmrn gw suruh u denger!. Jyahh, malu abis. Dah ah, nih lgsg aja ke trensletan nya.

“Don’t look back and leave. Don’t find me again and live (on). Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories.
I can bear it in some way. I can stand in some way. You should be happy if you are like this.
I become dull day by day”

well, it’s just a game. to laugh at and to play for.

hehe.